Thursday, August 31, 2006

|| Pastsss... ||

I was reading some of my old entries and I realised that I wrote REALLY LONG entries in the past! I wonder where did I find so much things to blog on? Or is that my life has become so mundane now that the blog entries has been reduced by almost half the length or more. Its most probably that I'm keeping the controversial stuff to myself instead of blogging them out. Haha. Well, but most of the time when I want to blog, my mind is in a blank. Nothing in particular that is worth blogging, or that I think others would wana read. Blame it all on an uninteresting social life.

Anyway, being on the topic of not wanting to blog my heart-felt issues, is that sometimes you don't even know who is reading your blog. So telling the whole world how you feel about a particular issue or somebody doesnt sound very good to me. Just like in the real world, one must be careful abt his selection of friends or trouble will start to brew. Like the wrong selection of friends may lead a person astray or maybe betrayed by a friend which is 2-headed. Since I have experienced the latter when I was in JC, its better not to talk about heart-felt stuff to people whom I cannot totally trust. Because the feeling sucks when you realise that you have been betrayed. Seems like I'm such a cautious person? Well,in real life, if I feel that I can connect with that person, I would trust my judgement and I won't hesitate to talk abt anything under the sun. Of course, my judgement aint always right as I've learned. But I'm really talkative..haha..people whom I am close with will know that best. Though I've experienced the worst in JC, I am thankful that I have still my bunch of close, good and new friends that I've met. Like my secondary, JC and Uni friends.

When I was younger, I used to have a diary where I wrote just abt anything. Since its private, I can say whatever I want to. So I cursed one of my ex-boyfriends really bad..Haha~ And the best part is that he will forever not know about it, so there is no consequences of writing irresponsibly. Its just so much fun bitching in your diary. So in my point of view, blogs sort of defeats the purpose if a person wants it to be his diary. Course, its quite impossible to be blogging your personal life for the whole world to read. Its really quite silly. Some things are just meant to be kept in your heart.

But ironically, what readers love to read is the personal life of the blogger. Somehow, reading about a person's perception (whom you dont know very well) seems interesting. Readers can feel "connected" to the blogger without even knowing him personally.

Well, but I guess this would be the most personal entry ever published, which is not even that personal. Haha. So wana know more? Just wait.

In Love @6:00 PM

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